the Life and Times of Miss Madison

Growing up, it seems that I never stay long at any church. The first church I remember going to was a Baptist church and I have always liked First Baptist Church as a child. However, for some reasons, my father decided to leave that church after a couple of years and take us to a church my  mother wanted to go-- Glad Tidings which  is an Assembly Of God church.  Once again, we didn't stay long because my father long to go to a church affiliated with or that his mother once went to when she lived in Hanford-- First Christian Church. It was the only church any of us continued going to until he got sick. The rest of us left after several years of attending the church and that was because my father gave us permission to leave his church (which he regretted it)..  The three of us continued going from one church to another and for whatever reason we left each. As for me, I stopped attending with my mother  and sister due to my rebellion and ...

I have often said I don't have a man in my life to love, but I have a cat I love even though his love for me is more based on conditions than anything else. Yet for now he is the only male in my life. I have another love too and I wrote about that. This love is different and  it is an example of the kind of love I don't  want in a man. I have been told that cats are independent and they are too some point. However, if they depend on their humans to feed them. And like all humans, they need love. Those are the two things they will ask from their humans and not return the favor. It is "You are required to provide these things for me because you are responsible for me."  Is not that about the same as children? They need love and attention from their parents, but they also give it back? The children do not say to their parents, "I don't need to give you love. You brought me into this world, so you are responsible for me."    I hope that my future husba...

I began a new tradition that I have  found myself asking: "Why?'  The tradition is dressing up before I go anywhere. I would put on cosmetics to give my cheeks and face some color.  My first reason is that I am an author and I should look nice when I go out, but I still ask why. Who  knows that I am an author?  In November I had my first book signing and not one person I know came!  It was depressing! Only my family was there for support. Although I got my interview, not many still knew  about me. I am still an unknown author in the city of Hanford.   The second reason is my hope of attracting the opposite sex.  I even ask myself  why bother? I have yet seen  a man I am attracted to. My ideal man has to sweep me off my feet and wow me!  I read about him in a book called She Belongs To Me by Carmen DeSousa. Although he is a bit controlling it is in  a  good way and then I read more and find out there is a ...

For most people, Valentine's day is a day to look forward to: the giving and receiving of chocolates, flowers or just a simple token of affection is exchanged on that day. For most people every day is Valentine's day because they love each other every day, but for others it can be a sad day, a  painful reminder that they are alone and I am one. I know I may have well meaning friends who will say something like "Well you have Jesus, Show him your love", but I have told Jesus that even though I know you loves me, can you be as wonderful as some of the male characters in the books I read?" I know that what I read is only fictional, but truly believe that guys can be romantic and wonderful. (Real life men) I also believe  that not ALL the good ones are taken so where is he?  I am trying to be like Rebekah in the book of Genesis who wasn't looking as far as I know. I want something like that to happen to me because I am not being found by the right man on...

I have been reading Genesis since the beginning of the year and I have come to some conclusions. However, what I heard among friends, I have proven myself ignorant to what life is like in the Old Testament.  The Bible never speaks about what kind of  things Sarah, Rebekah and Rachel did. I know that they had to be submissive to their husbands (Read about Sarah In Peter 3) I also know they were home makers or domestic engineers, but did they make a living as their husbands did? Proverbs 31 is about  awoman who does a lot  for her family. She is a seamstress, bread maker , and she even  makes linen garments, but she does not work outside the home. If she is a teacher, she is only one for her children. I would say she is in two words: The household manager.  I was only proven ignorant about that one  issue, but  not about the others. As I reflected on what I read so far, I have also noticed that the men  took care of livestock. I am sure t...

       2012 has been quite a year for me. Although, I have only seen a few things come to pass, it  hasn't been that great either.  My book Marge which I thought would make sales, turned out be a  flop and to my dismay, my publisher turn out to be a scam! I wanted so bad to become a best selling author but Publish America has priced my book so high that no one wants to buy it! The only thing they are good at is promising to publish your book-- that is as submitted.         I did not know anyone who could proofread my manuscript nor did I have a tool installed to spell and grammar check. I actually thought there were no  mistakes in it until my aunt who was the first to point out there were grammar mistakes in my book in a  review she gave me.  Later an  author friend told me the same thing so I checked and they were right.         I also tried to get my publisher to release my rights to my b...

Have you ever had your heart ripped out from you?   You meet someone wonderful and he is just as you always hope he would be, but you have this lingering feeling that is also too good to be true? I have.  It was not that he ripped my heart like in  a way of him cheating on me. It was the realization that he is not what he seems to be. I met him a dating website and I have checked him out at Spokeo.com according to his email address. He was legit as far as I was concerned so we  emailed each other for several days  and telling each other how much we mean to each other. So what went wrong? I did a lot more researching then I liked. I went to places like  http://www.romance.scam.com  and other websites like that. There I saw what I did not want to see.  I even searched him out on Facebook and thought oh no! He is from Ghana (Although I was wrong about that). I did not want to believe he was a scam artist, but what can I do?  He writes lik...