All Dressed Up and Why?

I began a new tradition that I have  found myself asking: "Why?'  The tradition is dressing up before I go anywhere. I would put on cosmetics to give my cheeks and face some color.  My first reason is that I am an author and I should look nice when I go out, but I still ask why. Who  knows that I am an author?  In November I had my first book signing and not one person I know came!  It was depressing! Only my family was there for support. Although I got my interview, not many still knew  about me. I am still an unknown author in the city of Hanford.  The second reason is my hope of attracting the opposite sex.  I even ask myself  why bother? I have yet seen a man I am attracted to. My ideal man has to sweep me off my feet and wow me!  I read about him in a book called She Belongs To Me by Carmen DeSousa. Although he is a bit controlling it is in  a good way and then I read more and find out there is a problem in the marriage.   I know   it is only a work of fiction and I also know that not all marriages are perfect. In fact, Paul wrote to the Corinthians that he thinks it is better  to not marry because marriage does not solve problems.  I think what is important to know is to solve problems together and so far in the book it is not happening. Hopefully it will.
Someday I will meet my prince charming. Maybe he will accept me as I am--make up or no make up.  So I  wrestle with a new question: Should I continue with  the tradition or should I discard it?

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