My Cat and Me

I have often said I don't have a man in my life to love, but I have a cat I love even though his love for me is more based on conditions than anything else. Yet for now he is the only male in my life. I have another love too and I wrote about that. This love is different and  it is an example of the kind of love I don't  want in a man.
I have been told that cats are independent and they are too some point. However, if they depend on their humans to feed them. And like all humans, they need love. Those are the two things they will ask from their humans and not return the favor. It is "You are required to provide these things for me because you are responsible for me."  Is not that about the same as children? They need love and attention from their parents, but they also give it back? The children do not say to their parents, "I don't need to give you love. You brought me into this world, so you are responsible for me."  
 I hope that my future husband will not be anything like my cat. I grew up receiving very little love and affection from my father. He was unable to give it because his own father did not give it to him.  We learn from our parents how to love our children.  Sometimes it is so hard for me to grasp how much my heavenly father loves me because was father was supposed to exemplify God's love for my sister and me. In Psalms, it says "That God has compassion on us as a father on his child" yet I never knew compassion.  The only way I know how much God loves me is by Jesus's death on the cross.

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