Changes

Several months ago, I wanted to do something about my life. I had hopes  and dreams and I thought why not get active.  I joined a single's group and met people older than me and hardly a man there, but I continued to go. They are wonderful people, but I have found that the main reason why they meet is to discuss the next Saturday's Agenda.  I knew I would not fit in. All of them have some sort of income. I do not. I get  some money but by the time I tithe  buy catfood and  bus fare, I also have to save up so it leaves me  with nothing. They all have cars. I do not.  Although I can easily walk there, I would need a ride during the winter hours because its dark. I never got one single ride which reminds me of the church I used to go. I may drop out all together. I missed the last meeting because I got busy.   In December, I wanted to read to children. I thought it would be a great way to connect to them, but hat fizzed out too because of roadblocks. Just recently, I made an investment and paid 60 dollars to join ChristianSingles.com as a  VIP member. Gotten several letters and wrote back to one. He hasn't but I am not giving up. Maybe Hanford  don't have what I need.

The weather is nice now and the desire to spend time with the Lord is there. I went for a walk today and confessed God's  words for my life. It was nice. I plan to do it often provided that I sleep good every night. I also desire to spend it alone outside. I really hope for some good changes in my life(Not the original thought but I added it)




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