the Life and Times of Miss Madison

If there was an "us", you would have more time for me as you did before. If there was an "us", you wouldn't hesitate to call me and you would call when you say you would. If there was  an "us", you would do everything in your power to come and see me instead of saying "In The Lord's Timing". Although we want the Lord;s timing, it wouldn't be a cover in saying why you can't come to see me. If there was an "us",  you would be here now, spending every moment with me. If there was an "Us,"  there would be no heartache and no tears, but joy and happiness, but.. There was no us. I was an option and not a priority. You kept the truth from me so you can have a girlfriend on the side. You cheated on your wife and lied to me. There was no us because as each day passed, our time together had become less and less. It was not as it used to be. I should have listened to the voice that told me the truth instead of thin...

Several months ago, I accepted a friend request on Facebook. I had my misgiving but I thought if 8 of my friends accepted him, why not. For less than a month I did not send him any messages. I just treated him like all my other friends on Facebook. In late October, I asked a question in which he commented. I really wished I had checked him out instead of leaping into unknown territory, but instead I acted on a thought: Is he the one? I could have saved myself so much heartache if I didn't acted on it. I sent him a message asking him if he had someone special in his life. I think I should have suspected something when he hesitated to answer. "No...why...?" was all I remember from that. The next thing I knew we were chatting with each other and sharing "Jesus" with each other. We both were in tuned with each other. One day, I went to his wall to post a  little message. Again a warning I did not heed. I started too, but when I remembered him telling him that his ...

I have debated whether I should share this in my writing post, but it is mostly about me. Ugh. About me.  Recently I had a dream which made me do some thinking: Maybe I had made it all about me and not all about God. I give him all the glory for what He has done in 2013, but the year could have been better for me. I could have sold many books instead of writing 3 books which no one wants to buy or download.  I don't want a repeat performance this year and therefore I did some praying and thinking. "Who am I writing for me and why do I write?" The hardest part in the whole year is watching other people  post about how their books are doing  while mine isn't doing anything. I began to question my gift as my boyfriend puts it. Or what is it doubting it? I try not to get discourage and let em get down. It's not that I think I am a terrible author, but that others thinks I am. Well, maybe not. They don't like romance or they do think I stink. (Laughs). I had a fe...

As I am staying yo to usher the new year, I reflect back on this past year. It is hard to believe that in a years time I had published three books--although one is a rewrite--actually two were. I remember earlier this year how I wanted out of the contract with my publisher. My book was filled with formatting issues and grammar errors and no one left me a good review. However, my sister came upon a windfall called educational refund and she paid for me to get rights back. Marge was my book but I renamed it and rewrote it. I also paid to have an editor to help with the manuscript. Several months later A Second Chance at Love was published. I couldn't be happier, but the happiness didn't last. Hardly anyone bought my book and gave me good reviews. As of this day it still stands with only two. What is worst some of my author friends  criticized my book saying there are too many point of views and there were questions about this and that. Sigh. Another one of my book has been revamp...

My heart continues to have an outpouring of gratitude every day.  Every day,  I am seeing that my dreams are slowly coming to pass. Never in all my life, have I seen God's goodness to me until this year. Although in the past, He has been good, I just have failed to see it. Over a year ago, Kenneth Copeland received from the Lord the prophecy about this year. He said that 2013 is the year of Great Grace. Normally, I would believe and receive it but it never came to pass for me. Now at this point, some of you may shake your head and stopped reading. You will be thinking, "That is because he is a false teacher." Don't stop reading. God has worked in my life more so this year that I can see, but in ways I have never expected. For many years, I have asked God to please do something about this bulge in my body. Due to my ignorance, I thought it was just muscles so I asked him to remove it. Meanwhile, I have suffered several medical problems not knowing it was related to...